Not planning

It seems like most of my life I have been told that I must have a plan. A guideline of sort. I'm happy to report that I never  really came up with one. It use to really bother me 5 year plan, 10 year plan... what are you doing with your life... I finally figured it out. 34 years & 9 months... My plan is to live. You might be surprised at how much people don't. It's not always easy. 

You make people nervous...

Today I was standing at the airport in OKC, OK preparing to check on to a flight back to Nashville when I asked the agent... Got anything flying into St. Louis? He said NO. He said that's it what you have in your hand and I repeated... No sir, not nashville. Do you have anything into St. Louis? He looked like I was taking away his birthday... ma'am there are no more flights to... and I looked him in the eyes... he finally made eye contact with me and typed something into the computer. There is a flight leaving at 4:30 it's been delayed. I'll take it. I dialed my cell phone and on the other end my daddy answered the phone in his familer 'hello" Dad I'll be landing at 6:00pm in St. Louis. "good deal he said I'm on my way." An hour and thirty minutes later I was hugging my dad and eating a great meal at O'Charley's. 

Finding happiness is easy if you follow your heart. Dig deep and see what is you really need at that momment. The key here is just that what you need, not everyone else,  just you. For me it was hug from my dad turns out it's just what he needed as well. :-) 

"It's life sometime you fall"

"It's life sometimes you fall" -wise words once spoken to me by a 7 yr old. 

Healthy Obsession

I've been traveling for work so Biggie has been with his dad. (he's a joint custody dog) I picked him up last night actually he picked me up... car battery gone wrong... anyway, I missed him a bunch so I thought I would talk about my Healthy Obsession. Biggie. Yes, I love my big white gassy English Bulldog *giggles* I don't care if you think he is spoiled because he thinks you should share whatever it is you are eating. I mean seriously call the dog whisperer guy on me because he growls at me every night at bedtime when I am helping him into the bed. I mean He's 10 years 4 months aka 72 yrs old. He gets to be grumpy at some point in the day. Biggie came into my life about six months after my mother lost her 21 year battle with malenomia. He has outlasted my marriage and lived in 5 states! If you have had the honor of meeting Biggie you understand why in the photo above I am smiling so "Big".  I love my dog more then most people get over it. What is your healthy obsession?

Kicking & Screaming...

So lately I've been pretty busy working on a couple advances: Radio City Christmas Spectacular, Monsters of Rock, and Ozzfest. It's pretty funny one call I am talking about 3 inches of Blood next call I'm talking about where Santa's going to land. When people ask me what tour I'm on I can't help but say Kicking & Screaming. LOL! So what are you working on? Not that it defines you but as a conversation piece? 

Learning to Listen...

My friend Maggie hooked me up with a wonderful church when I lived in Chicago. I loved the messages, the pastor always made me laugh. I haven't lived in Chicago since 2000. I really haven't taken the time to seek out a church since. My excuse is lame to busy just not enough time. My good friend Snelly made a remark about this pastors blog and how she thought she might want to check out his church. I surprised myself and said what are you doing tomorrow let's go. *steps back* wait did I just volunteer to go to church. The girl who was brought up on Jimmy Swaggart and raised Assembly of God. Who was required to clean her room and go to church on Wednesday and Sunday AM/PM if she wanted to go roller skating on Friday nights. Really just said what what are you doing tomorrow let's go. So...we went to crosspoint and something happened. The pastor made me laugh. (He also made me cry but don't you dare tell anyone that!) The lesson was simple yet complex. He even used a vending machine as prop. (I find myself wanting peanut m&m's) Don't pray like God is a vending machine and pick out what you want and walk away. Learn to Listen. He asked everyone to think of the first word you associate with the word Pray. My word was release. I needed a reminder, I didn't know I was missing anything but I stopped to Listen and guess what... I guess I needed me some God. :) *Thanks Snelly* P.S. I also stopped at the CVS and got me some peanut m&m's.

Avoiding your Destiny 101

I have been running my whole life... I haven't spent more then 2 years in one home. It wasn't always that way I had one house growing up (dad still lives there) At age 17 I left that house and moved to Lumberton, NC to complete my Junior year. I really haven't stopped moving since. I hit the two year mark and off I go. Most people are weary of change and I embrace it. I actually thrive off it. So I find myself looking at October 2008, it marks two years in the 704 square feet mansion I bought in Nashville. So I have started looking at houses in *insert city* as it was time to run. Then I realized something while watching of all things Kung Fu Panda...it was the power of the IMAX effect or something but the wise old turtle Oogway borrows an old french proverb "One often meets his destiny on the road he takes to avoid it." jaw to the ground. what. So all this "running" all this time... I turn 35 in October and as gift to myself I will embrace the two year mark feet grounded with a happy heart and a home filled with love. 

Don't forget to have a good time...

They say it takes more muscles to frown then it does to smile (http://www.snopes.com/science/smile.asp) and there for awhile I couldn't seem to find my smile... I think it's back. :-)

Vitamin D

My friend Olivia says "My Freckles live in Florida." I seriously think she needs to turn this into a T-shirt cause it's true. I think this needs to be a mass print and not just the airbrushed kind she had made at that festival that said "I heart Mike Webb" although that shirt was cool on so many other levels.  Sighs... I type this as it pours down rain in Nashville and the weather widget on my mac informs me it's sunny and 81 there and I bet Sprinkles still has that Lime sorbet... How is it that I walked/ran 3 miles everyday there and here I can barely make it to the mailbox and back... I taste that key lime butter grouper, hear sting chanting on the lawn,  and I am still laughing about the pink kayak and wonder how a person is suppose to get back into that thing once you fall out...or maybe that's it you just can't fall out? Maybe there is no reset button. Well I know one thing for sure my reset button and my freckles both live in florida. Thanks Liv!

They can't all be happy endings.

My friend Hilary has had 22 surgery's in the past 2 years.  She is currently stuck in a wheelchair while she recovers. However this blog is not about her amazing story (she will need to be the one to tell that) I just want to tell you about a movie she picked out for us to watch "the diving bell and the butterfly...the "true" story of jean do bauby.  so after seeing the movie I order the book for two reasons 1. I figure if a man can blink his book out one letter at a time I can find time to read his book. 2. let's hear the real story. Movies always make changes to what they think "we" as and audience will want to see. How messed up is that. Take Nicholas Sparks books for example when they take his books and turn them into movies they change the endings... I've stopped watching...Life isn't always a happy ending.